Cheated?

is my fault letting this happen?
if i made my decision harder can this be prevented?
drunk mind allow us to do things that over the bound?
my heart are broken into pieces.
i can't fix it.
why it has to be her?
why it has to be him?
why it has to happen to me?
i trusted that there's no problem with this far apart.
but i am wrong.
is my fault letting this happen.
i don't feel angry nor mad but i broken into tears.