Cheated?

is my fault letting this happen?
if i made my decision harder can this be prevented?
drunk mind allow us to do things that over the bound?
my heart are broken into pieces.
i can't fix it.
why it has to be her?
why it has to be him?
why it has to happen to me?
i trusted that there's no problem with this far apart.
but i am wrong.
is my fault letting this happen.
i don't feel angry nor mad but i broken into tears.

Trying Hard

Is the end..
Everything's is over..
This is the time that always afraid it will happen..
Finally,it happens..
Every moment and time stop here 833 days with you..
Even we argue.. Even apart..
Even is painful.
Even is hurtful.
Even the feeling sucks.
No matter what..
You are the baby i love..
The feeling is still there deep inside..
I need time to heal..
To cope with it..
To get used without your messages..
I am sorry that i being harsh to you..
I know you will say is too late..
I know you will say "blame yourself"
Maybe we really need a break to be without each other..
Is hard..
I never thought is that hard..
My heartache whenever i think of the time we spend..
The words you whispers..
Warmest hug you gave..
Sweetest kisses you had..
The hand i hold is no longer belong to me..
You are no longer my baby..
I'm no longer your precious baby..
I will always be there to support whenever you needed..
Be there to hear your words..
Learn to be a better person..
Irreplaceable..
Thanks for all the love you gave me..
All the cares..
All the sacrifice..
All the things you did to me..
Fight for me..
Appreciate what you gave me..
I know you feel me deep inside..
Is easy to ask a person to change but try to change yourself you will know how hard is it..

busy busy busy

Very Busy with my assignment.
With my homework.
Will update my blog very very very soon.

Every Girls Dreams

I believe every girls has this dream about getting married with their sweetheart.
Wearing the white wedding gown with the bless from their families and friends.
The day where you gonna be a wife soon maybe your own little family which is knows as a mother.
A day which every things were perfect and beautiful.
Everyone looking at you and a day that belong to you and the person you love.
Sharing with everyone you love.
Well,actually i post this title without any reason.
Maybe just recently my relation with him been a bit rocky.
There's so much feeling i wanted to express but is too complicated.
I really wish that he's home now.
Though,Cartier is a nice choice to be a wedding ring.

Vincent Willem van Gogh.

Vincent Willem van Gogh.
I am not any artist but I'm so in love with arts.
Since i start working at Davinci creative development center.
I learn so much about colours and the technique.
Everyone who loves art surely will admire an artist that well-knows in this industry.
Well,since i been start training at The One Academy i started to learn bout the artist and their background.
I would love to share this artist work that i admire.
This artwork is one of my favourite called The Starry night.

Eve Night

It's 10.19pm now.
Do you know what is the origins of "a.m" and "p.m"?
These abbreviations represent the Latin phrase ante/post meridiem, which mean 'before/after midday' . They actually have been in use in English since 17th century.
Okay,what i wanted to post now is obviously not about the time.
Today is 24th of December which is known as Christmas Eve.
Which is the day before Christmas Day.
Christmas Eve is also seen as the night when Santa Claus makes his rounds delivering gifts to good children.
For me today which is the day before i celebrate my 2years with the person i love.
Yes,indeed is 25th of December which known as the day we be with each other.
2Years being far apart is not an easy task.
But we are now still happily together even far apart.
There's this words needed in our relationship which is called as
" TRUST"
Next week i will be slightly busy at work due to the notice-board things i been engage to and which is needed to be done before the school holidays end.
Is my off day today until Sunday.
Yes ! 4 days off. (ha ha)
Even though i did not celebrate eve or Christmas or our 2 years.
I had a great night alone with my mom.
My brothers is chilling out with his friends to count down for this festive seasons to begin!
Last but not least Merry Christmas..

Working in an environment surrounded by sweetie.
Super bored at work but yet still fun.
From Left : Yap Inn Tung,Ch'ng Kai Wei,Charrisa Teh Lu Xuan.